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Friday, January 12, 2007

Taking stock

One of my closest friends keeps asking, of keeping a blog, "Yes, but what is it for?". I think she has a point. I don't really know what this is for.

I've become increasingly uneasy & inhibited about splurging family 'stuff' in a semi-public place. I could probably have wirtten anonymously about my husband's health, my kids' various endeavours & the like, but pretty much everyone who reads this knows who I am, & therefore who they are, & it doesn't feel right. On the other hand, I can hardly run each entry past an editorial panel to negotiate what should/should not be published! I admired TRT's blog until I found myself asking awkward questions about how the unwitting 'victim' of his posts might feel... Actually I do still admire it - he's an intelligent & witty writer - but I no longer feel any desire to emulate it.

I've also become more self-conscious (present post notwithstanding!) about inebriated late-night ramblings that people might come across - by 'people' I mean colleagues, students, family members, family members' partners/friends/acquaintances... All that 'you're my besshht mate you are - hic - & the Innernet's wunnerful innit - hic', not to mention the occasional 'I hate the world & I hate myself & I want to DIE' moments, are so embarrassingly adolescent. On the other hand, if I'm going to censor & sanitise, what's the point?

I've been looking back at Nog's posts that brought me back into the world of blogging after an initial nervous encounter that had been quickly abandoned. He wrote, back in May 2005:
I think it's an opportunity to try a different voice, it need not be responsive in the way that emails and conference postings usually are - it can be didactic, I can direct it without reference to a specific function for this area, I'm writing for an unknown audience (...) an opportunity for public introspection, a vocal meditation. So not only pompous but also self-indulgent and conceited! :-)
I've no idea whether he still feels the same way, having moved on to more specifically educational applications (as did I, with the more comfortably focused Connecting wth H806) but I'm now finding the "different voice" too ill-defined to serve any real purpose.

I'd quite like to post humorous & incisive reflections on my Daily Doings, in the manner of Non-Working Monkey. I'd also enjoy putting up a regular sarky commentary on the BBC News site's illogical & ungrammatical reports. Or I could produce a diary of My Life As An OU Tutor (with carefully anonymised references to colleagues & students). But what would it be for?

Well, that's the spare Christmas sherry finished, & if you've made it to the end of this little piece of self-indulgence, I guess you can join the ranks of "besshht mates" :-)

3 Comments:

  • At 14 January, 2007 16:59, Blogger kat said…

    I think a blog can be a place to put something you haven't really got a home for, or a place to try something out, or a place to put something you want to remember, a place to put a frustration or just another place to reach people. It is an interactive scrapbook. I don't think it needs to have a theme and I don't think it needs to be brilliant - it is just your own place.( My junk drawer)
    I admit to feeling uncomfortable about discussing family or very personal matters and my study stuff goes elsewhere. There are some issues I would love to discuss but would dread present or potential employers coming across - I believe in saying what I think but there are better ways, better methods and more suitable places.
    Blogs with themes and a purpose are designed for other people - my blog is my own and sometimes it is just a place to record stuff or deal with a frustration. At other times, I enjoy the interaction but my ramblings are rubbish really - I try to prevent them reaching the search engines. If I have something I want to say to an individual or a particular group, I send them an email.
    Group study blogs are good, but getting people to use them can be a bit of a bugger.
    Hope you had a good Christmas.

     
  • At 15 January, 2007 21:50, Blogger Morning-Loves-It said…

    I haven't Blogged for ages because there have been so many private things going on in my life they weren't for public reading in this way.

    Plus I couldn't get a new Bloogy password. Now I'm back in I shall keep it light and as a record of things that I don't mind other people knowing about.

    The private stuff I keep between me and my family and partner.
    Always have.

    An old schoolfriend has just contacted me by email after several years of no news. In reply I sent her straight to my Blog. That'll tell her all she needs to know about me. Or as much as I want her to know.

    A good New Year to both of you.

     
  • At 07 February, 2007 23:59, Blogger Nogbad said…

    An old schoolfriend has just contacted me by email after several years of no news. In reply I sent her straight to my Blog. That'll tell her all she needs to know about me. Or as much as I want her to know.

    I think that's the key - however "open and honest" we profess to be we all self-censor (don't we?) to some extent and we apply different boundaries in different contexts and with different audiences. And they are not fixed - they change with how we feel don't they? Or is all just me?

     

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